I have to say something to you. This isn’t going to be easy. To be honest, this is probably going to hurt me more than it will hurt you but this needs to be said.
We need to break up.
It isn’t you, it’s me. Get used to that saying, because it won’t be the last time someone says it to you. You might even say it to a stage 5 clinger in the future, much more on that when you are older.
I haven’t been the best dad lately. I have been easily frustrated, angered, which would lead to many time-outs. Time-outs that I wish I did not have to give you. There has been an internal struggle with me lately, a fight for something that you do not quite understand that has been interfering with me being a good dad.
You see, I’m unemployed. This is not the easy on a person. I have felt like failure each and every time I would get turned down for a job, which would lead to more frustration, anger and time-outs. I’m sorry. I really should not let it out on you, because you have not done anything to cause this.
So see, it isn’t you, it’s me.
There is more to the story and another reason we need to break up. I love being a stay-at-home-dad. I would drop everything to be one in a heartbeat, but our family cannot afford to do that now. Once your mother becomes a hot shot lawyer, sure! I will be able to full concentration into you becoming the next Nolan Ryan. For now though, that has to wait. need a job, to help support you and your mother. Without a job, you will not become the next Nolan Ryan and your mother would have no way to become the lawyer that she wants to be.
Today, I come to you telling you why we are going to break up. Hopefully, with this break, I will be a better dad, you won’t be in time-out as much, and your mother can continue the dream of being a lawyer.
I FOUND A JOB!
Great, right? For me, it is sort of bitter-sweet. I don’t want to end our time together but you need to go to preschool to learn. You heard me right, preschool! Damn, you are growing up so fast. I can see your lower lip sticking out now as I tell you this because you want to stay home with dad and play trains and superheroes all day.
I am fighting back tears as I remember everything that we did together and thinking about what we won’t be able to do all day. We won’t be able to sing The Fox song with you at the top of our lungs. We won’t be able to run around the house talking like a pirate trying to find you in a game of hide-and-seek (you need to work on hiding by the way… when I say “where are you” it’s best not to respond with “right here”). We won’t be able to spend every morning together at the park, as I watch you try to impress the ladies with your impressive ABC skills.
All of those things mean something to me. Something that is almost impossible to put into words. Sure, we were growing a great relationship but this break will build and even stronger relationship.
We will make it through this together. You know why? Because, I’m not going anywhere. I’ll still be home in the evenings ready to teach you to be Nolan Ryan. Ready to show you how to stick play-doh up your nose. We will still be able to go out and catch grasshoppers and frogs together. More importantly, teach you the life lessons when it comes time to make a clean break with your girlfriend.
We will both benefit from this break up, trust me, we both need it. Even though I won’t be there all-day, every day, I will be there for you. I am still your dad. You are still my son. That is a relationship that will never EVER go away.
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